Some days i just want to quit this lovely job i DIDN'T sign up for! I am sick of quite a few aspects of my life at this moment. but thats just cuz its a bad day. I am at the end of my patience and caring at the moment. I am tired of being the one that has to be the rock. i am tired of being the one that has to hold things together, that has to make all the responsible decisions, that has to be the one who carries the burdens daily. And my body is starting to show signs of being worn from this stress as well.
The most that i want from this life is basic. Happiness, peace, comfort. there are very small amounts of each of these in my current "season" of life. And i just wonder, how long will it be that i can hold up under this? how long can i ride this roller coaster?
Is any one actually happy? I will meet people that seem to have it all figured out, all together, but then i find out they really dont. that they too are plagued with pain, unhappiness, miscomunication....and are just plain Unhappy too.
so, today is a yuck day. and i have a bad feeling it is the start of my "bad days" season.
at least God is still God, regardless of how i feel.
and that is the string that i cling to.
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I just love you. To answer your question, your trial won't last one second longer than God intends. His timing is perfect and He loves you immensely. It hurts Him to see you hurting, but He is doing a work in you and your family which He will get all the glory for. Someday (hopefully and prayerfully sooner rather than later) you will be able to look back and see how all these jagged puzzle pieces will fit together perfectly into a masterpiece that He created! I know how tempting it is to want to throw your hands up in the air and quit, but the Lord won't let you. Even if it is just taking in a breath at a time, it means you are still going. You are loved my sister!
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